4. I wouldn’t have taught Winston to be afraid of the dark *.
* Winston would like me to tell you that he hasn’t been afraid of the dark since he was 10 years old.
But before that, he definitely was, and it was all my fault.
As far as I can remember, I have been afraid of the dark. I slept with a lamp on in my room – and pretty much every other light on in the house.
This kind of role model rubs off on a child – that is, lifelong scars – making it difficult in school camps. And during the session sessions (JOKING).
I wish I could put my phobia aside and make him comfortable with just the hallway light on. But I couldn’t, because my nighttime nervousness intensified when I became the only adult in the house when he was two years old.
I wish I had made more effort not only to “live with it”, but to deal with it. It would have been better to put Winston to sleep several nights.
5. I wish I had more confidence in myself. I was a parent with the mindset that if I was going to be this child’s sole parent, I had to be the best – he deserved the best education, and all the material possessions and experiences I could afford.
But I finally – only recently when I saw the young man he has become – realized that I was enough. Because somehow, despite my mistakes, Winston turned out to be a testament to the things I did well.
If I went back in time and reconsidered my decisions, now I would have a brave teenager who eats veg in the dark without any issues with giving up.
Nonetheless, I still have on my hands a kind, funny, bright, and polite young man – who only needs the average teenager to be bribed.
Featured Image: Instagram / @namawinston.